Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Make your own way

Please for the love of god.....god don't have time as in NO time to bother about ones life.....please stop thinking about god has already set the way for you......BUNTUT SAYA! if god has set the way for me then there wouldn't be choices isn't it and the whole god blessed world would be perfect......crime-free world and there wouldn't be sinners.....so JUST STOP THINKING ABOUT GOD SET THE WAY FOR ME thing......its really annoying and i am serious

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

taking off the mask

since no one as in NO ONE....taking me seriously then fine i will show you my true self and when that happens....don't come crying to become my old self...cause i had it....I HAD IT FOR PEOPLE TREATING ME AS A JOKE!

Monday, October 27, 2008

left behind

recently, i have not been in class so i might missed out alot but thats not the case.....the problem is that i starting to feel that i am not belong in the class anymore.....i start to feel so faithless and a total stranger....i don't know whats going on to me....but only time can tell.....maybe i finally quitting to being a scrawny juvenil....

Friday, October 17, 2008

Monster hunter frontier

well monster hunter has reach south korea and japan has just finish their beta test......i heard that MH: frontier also reach Philippines......hope it will reach hong kong.....where us malaysian MH fans get to play it.......PLEASE CAPCOM! RELEASE YOUR MH frontier HERE!

Okay i am sure you guys don't know what the heck i am talking about.....monster hunter-frontier is a new MMORPG just like normal online games...

here is the sneak peek-http://video.mmosite.com/display.php?vid=8457&gid=559

Thursday, October 16, 2008

story of a girl

i might be seen as a care-free pan but not all the time.......i have lot of names from pan to the child of the devil......

when i was wandering in the forest..... i met this little girl..... she is like an angel from some human but as i in the shape of a pan..... she is nothing but a ordinary human child..... and most humans will refer her as cute.....

it was clear from the time that i met her that she a nice little girl, kinda short, but hey, i wasnt exactly micheal jordon myself..... but when we met i would always notice that spark in her eyes, so full of life. yes, she was beautiful, but i only enjoyed her company as a friend, in time, we shared various personal moments, just her and i. both of us would talk about stuff, share things like secrets and just talk. along the forest floor, enjoying the sun. an angel on earth i would say filling me with so much joy.

hey, sure it sounded alot like we were two lovebirds, getting it on, but i did not however, develop feelings for her. it was a terrible thing because in time,  she eventually did. confusing as it was for me, i still did not feel anything for her besides the fact that we were really good friends. afterall, i knew someone of such grace would not fall for a simple woodland creature such as i. so i suppose i only saw her as something of a sister...... when the time came for her to confess to me, i thought she was joking. i know it must have really stung but i really thought it was a joke, referring to what happened to me not too long ago, i was shot down by a siren, not directly though, the siren thought i was just joking too. she was after all, singing her song of death for another, less fortunate creature. one who was probably much more shallow and handsome as i was.

although it was quite  a blow to that pretty young thing. although, an angel, no matter how injured by heart break, will rise from the ashes like a wounded phoenix, and the pan  would ultimately feel lost and confused as the slow pangs of guilt settled on him like dust on the graves of the many others that had fallen prey to the siren's song. but the pan, would eventually never tire of the sirens alluring song, but he would never forget about his dear companion, the wounded angel. smiling so happily, as he played his pan flute, dancing with her hand in hand, in genuine plutonic friendship. so happy, and filled with joy. what more could you want?

it was all good after awhile, as the dust settles we went back to our daily routine, laughing and joking around. however, a being would ultimately become part of this fairytale of epic friendship. do you know whats a gnome? its a small dwarfish kinda thingy.  but it can also be a small ugly person and a ruthless influential bastard with bad intentions. it was not long before it set its piercing red eyes on her blood shot and filled with deviousness. that i sensed a storm approaching. soon the gnome would become good friends with her, the angle, growing ever fond of his company as a good friend, never expected the gnome to ask the angel to become his lover. the angel, shocked, was all too surprised by this sudden question, nonetheless, being the angel that she was, she merely accepted him so she would not break his heart. personally, i thought he was a repulsive little, ugly thing. always annoying the hell out of me with his fellow gnomes, thinking he was cool as he blabbered about all his strengths and put the other creatures around him down. everytime i saw him, i rolled my eyes as he would pull me away from my company, and just talk about something i didnt care about, but being the pan i was, i merely played along to his tune, hoping he would shut the hell up.

their relationship was bound by merely speech and promise. nothing more, as the angel was never in love with him, although there were some moments where she saw some things about him that she liked, she too, was repulsed by his annoying ramblings and his short temper. soon she sought my help, she was lost, unsure whether she loved this creature or not, asking the me about what i would do, and how i felt. it was clear however their relationship was going nowhere, and she was unhappy, as she saw that horrible little annoying creature as a friend. now she is bound and tied, regretting her kindness, for she simply could not find the heart to tell the creature that she did not love him. i felt a hint of pity for her, for an angel to be chained and grounded because of a lover who she didnt even felt anything for.....

but i, a mere forest pan, could only play a tune for her sorrow, hoping she would find happiness, being a true friend, as i stand beside her and support her..... playing my flute, sitting in the sun. but when the time comes for her to require my support, i will go to her aid, as any friend would.




Wednesday, October 15, 2008

distance and path

my distance between me and my wife is getting far apart day after day....soon she will become a thought instead of a goal......a fleeting dream.....never say this to me: try hard to reach for your dreams.... Why? cause its just pure bull.....i tried hard to get it...what do i get? yes bet on it......NOTHING!

dreams will never come true....just nightmares....-Han-

This is the dawn of my rebellion......from now on i will go my way....not yours.....not like you ever experience it......never ask me to learn shit i don't like.....

Note to parents #1: never scold or yell at your kids when they did the same mistakes that you did before...

Example: never ask your kids to learn new things when you yourselves that don't want to learn new things......

in my situation......my mum ask me to take accounts which is new for me while she sits at home and office not willing to learn new things such as english.....she expect me to speak for her....great....i know her accounts are great but i have NO as in NOO!!!! interest in it.

Lesson from dad: Me: hey dad.....do you know anything about accounts?
Dad: Hell no.....not even a single thing...*laugh*

Conclusion: If you don't know anything about accounts.....marry a wife that
knows accounting.

Note to parents #2: never as in NEVER! make promises that you can't deliver... you just make your child more rebellious.

WOOHOO~

alright....i think i could take your place but i don't know what to do.....but i am glad i get the job.....at least i don't get bored......lot of things for me to learn......alright thats all for today...and the recent news about the XIV member of organization XIII is a girl name Xion (kingdom hearts)

Kingdom Hearts for NDS and PSP

well i am sure KH fans wanted to know when kingdom hearts for NDS (kingdom hearts 358/2 days) it will officially release on feb 2009....soon right??? and for the PSP (kingdom hearts birth by sleep) will be coming soon on 2009....date is not available yet......bunch of smart asses of square-enix.....here is the link for trailer for this 2 games in Tokyo Games Show 2008.....http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=D_AQwsX7asE&feature=related

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Wondrous

I did something i never going to regret...
Something so wondrous....so....you get what i mean....
I don't know but it makes me so glad that i able to make someone so.......delighted....
Anyway.....you should get what you deserve.....whatever you think that something or someone deserve you.....
its yours....but don't forget....whats yours is yours but what is not will never be yours....even you force it....you will gave this burden in your life....

Everyone deserve something...no matter what treasure what you have..-Han-

Friends in My Heart -kingdom hearts-

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Day 1 of deep depression

this is the first time in my life i feel so lifeless and meaningless.....
i had enough for trying so damn hard for something that it won't happen....
i would just give up all the useless things and focus on my life-long goal.....
i try so hard and all i get is a word "well done! you did really great son!"....
thats it? well i expect something more! like getting my wife!
answer for that "you know you have SPM next year? and do you have time to even touch your playstation 3?"
I will go "why not?"
Here they go.....with their parents trademark mumble.......

i feel like shit and get more shit from them more as in not just a truck or 2 but the entire cargo shipment of it....

GAY SHIT ALWAYS HAPPEN! NEVER MAKE PROMISES TO YOUR CHILDREN IF YOU CAN'T KEEP THEM!

Surrender

its time to pull the white flag.....its time to give up fight for some dumb dream that will never happen. i lost my appetite for fight....for my beloved dream.....its all gone...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Freedom

everyone wants freedom.....if ones want freedom, they should learn how to be discipline. If one don't have discipline, they will end up in a box again. Why? Its simply how you control yourself. For example-
If one get freedom and without discipline, they will go out of control because they want to do whatever they want. Without discipline there is no self-control and no self-control they will commit things that will endanger someone's life.

-Do whatever you want but, think twice before doing it.- Han