Day 1 of deep depression

this is the first time in my life i feel so lifeless and meaningless.....
i had enough for trying so damn hard for something that it won't happen....
i would just give up all the useless things and focus on my life-long goal.....
i try so hard and all i get is a word "well done! you did really great son!"....
thats it? well i expect something more! like getting my wife!
answer for that "you know you have SPM next year? and do you have time to even touch your playstation 3?"
I will go "why not?"
Here they go.....with their parents trademark mumble.......

i feel like shit and get more shit from them more as in not just a truck or 2 but the entire cargo shipment of it....

GAY SHIT ALWAYS HAPPEN! NEVER MAKE PROMISES TO YOUR CHILDREN IF YOU CAN'T KEEP THEM!