another hope down the fucking drain. why the fuck parents have to give fake hope to their own children. i know its stupid i say this.

i spend countless sleepless night hoping i would get my PS3. its been 3 weeks since she ask me to ask for the price for PS3. and know she is refusing to get it for me. i don't know how i gonna spend my half of my holidays.

i would love to go out but everytime there is a plan and people will shoot you down last minute so i would just stay at home a watch the tele as it loop the same movies again and again. well probably i would think of a way to rot or maybe try something new.

but there is always restrictions made by my dad who is of the window. come on i mean a kid get ear piercing why not i? a kid get a PS3 why not i?

if you wanna compare kids here i would put you on the line and compare you with their parents. you have the word "outdated" written all over your face. other parents play game why not you? other parents don't smoke why not you? other parent don't give their children fake hope why not you?

if you wanna compare i can write an encyclopedia about you and compare a better parents then you are you fucking Hippocrates. you can be stupid on purpose and why not us? don't give me the same reason saying its for your own good. MY ASS! hear me? i will say it again MY FUCKING ASS!

so readers if your parent are like that i have 1 piece of advise for you. be rebellious as much as you can. you don't have to care for their feelings as they would care for you? all they want is a peaceful retirement where endless flow of money from you when you find yourself a job. Kai is right about this point. parent don't care about your future. all they want to go around the world when they retire hoping us their children to post them money every week.

till next time more about parents

Limits

every thing that existed have its limit. no matter what is it, life, love, friendship, and many more that you could mention. have a limit. not to say stop but it has boundaries that we could not cross or maybe we could but we just don't wanna go any further.

for instance, you have secrets but there is some secrets that your friends or your love ones must not know but no matter what...they will keep annoy the shit outta you to tell them....why?

well here goes the same thing. even though you said it. what can you do? what is done is done. no matter how unless you could reverse time. then i could tell you everything that i have done the moment i was born.

everything have this thin layer of fabric call limits. so if you break this fabric means you are doing something that other person will not like it so next time think before you act or if you wanna take risks for breaking a relationship with another person so go ahead and try but don't go crying for your mother.

Holidays

YAY FOR HOLIDAYS! and i know i am not going to enjoy this shitty holidays....you know what i mean........what the hell is wrong this year? well PS3 is totally off my expectations and i guess i will stuck with the old PSP again......anyway WHO WANTS TO MONSTER HUNT!? kidding and i got bored until i get my WIFE! with my shitty results.........don't bet on it.......and Mr. Khezu.......give me a stupid comments ........ FOR CRYING OUT LOUD HE DON"T EVEN KNOW MY FREAKING NAME!

Mr. Khezu: eh you!
Me: ME?!
Mr. Khezu: YES YOU!

well thats how he refer to me...."eh"....and he even dare to give me a stupid comment......please........hope god bless your sorry ass that think his teaching is great......

at the horizon
*meh arsh!*

gods and humans

everyone thinks that god are some humans that did something un-natural and extraordinary and they got promoted and become god.....well i watched a show and that change my point of view. have you ever thought that god might live among us like a human? those we called them as forgotten gods and humans that thought to become god are remembered. How about the actual gods that create us? the ancients that live among us? forgotten.....

please be reminded that gods do live among us. just that we don't know about it.

drawing that i will finish sketching

well that picture i will get it done with pencil sketches is about....you will find out soon

Meaning of Life

i just found a reason to live....i wanna to do this since the beginning of my life.....as long as i could remember i existed anyway....the thing i wanna to do ever since is jumping of a building......well thats my reason to live......not for long anyway