today had been, maybe a depressing i guess....

not sure what hit me, but i know something big hit me yet i don't realize it at all. as i kept listening to the song playing, it make me think alot, as if i never thought of such things before.

its really hard to put it in words, even Shakespeare might not even come out a word for this weird feeling. maybe people grow up as nature already set it but somehow there is something within me that is stopping it.

sometimes being childish and immaturity doesn't have to be necessary to be care-free and always have to be happy-go-lucky. people will not take it seriously even you put on a serious face. they will just take your words as joke.

i am not sure if people are using me as a tool of entertainment. when you're gone people beg for you to come back as they thought it will be fun when you're around. basically they just wanted you to fill up the space they suddenly thought of. when you're there, they might not even know you are there. when i say a joke and being childish in there, they will laugh and you start to think, "hey i am something after all in them" such a fool i am to think of such....i finally ran out of words for this.

no one gonna remember me, as i am the backdrop in an act. no one gonna take it serious, especially from the fool from the streets.

will anyone believe me when i say the sky is falling? will anyone take my word that i will find a fallen star? will anyone trust me when i see an angel decent upon me saying that the human-race will be wiped out except me?

tell me when your hearts are open to except a fool's word. any fool, me, a beggar, a mad man, anyone at all. the most important thing, do you believe in your own words.

is it human's nature?

and i do not want anyone to feel sorry or guilty, this is just merely what i think and words from a fool.

-Han-